Where it really matters

I've been thinking about how the gospel in my life is truly intertwined in all that I do. If I think for a moment, or any aspect of it, is not, I'm wrong. My knowledge, my beliefs, and my understanding that come from my church, all play a role in my day to day life. I've heard that some people think because I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, that I'm forced to live a certain way, forced to do certain things. This isn't further from the truth. Everything I do is because I want to. I have always had a choice and I always will. It's one of the many great things I love about my religion.

So as I've been thinking about all of this, I've been more recently focused on how the gospel and my education are related. If you've kept up with my blog, this has been my internal battle since early this year. I've known all along that God has a plan for me, I just didn't know what it was. I've gone back and forth and back and forth for months. Should I keep going to school? Should I stay home and finish raising my children? Should I be supporting and focusing more on my husband? Am I being selfish?

Looking back on it now, I can clearly see that it was me who made this question, should I finish my schooling or not, into a battle. I was the one making it more complicated than it had to be. You see, I had more than one person get on my case over what I should do. There were people who were appalled by me being in school in the first place, along with my husband. Other people telling me a few semesters were enough to get the "school bug" out of my system. Then others practically saying they couldn't believe I wasn't continuing my education where I am so close to being done. These same people couldn't understand the fact that having children was making it a harder decision. Then my not so favorite people telling me I was being selfish for doing any of this and not fully supporting my husband as a wife should do.

So you can see why this was getting to me and it really was. I let it get to me, for months. I let everyone else say what they wanted and I mulled it all over. But you know what, the only people who I should have involved in my decision was my Heavenly Father, myself, and my husband. It's still a bit irritating listening to certain people tell me they know what's best for me. No one knows that except Heavenly Father. If I had taken this up with Him from the beginning, it wouldn't have taken me nine months to make a decision.

I have made a decision and have received the knowledge that what I have chosen is right, not only for me, but for my family. I will be finishing my degree. I will graduate from my physical therapy assistant program. It's not going to be easy with my husband still in school and our children growing as fast as they are. But I know this is right and Heavenly Father will help me. He would never set me on a path to fail and through my faith and trust in Him, together, we will make this work.

I'm so thankful to have Him and His son, Jesus Christ, walking along side of me every step of the way. Knowing that everything I have and everything I do is because of them, makes me a truly blessed and grateful daughter of God. :)